.……I never meant for you to stay…But, you have.
I never thought you to be what I wanted…I only planned for you to be (just) what I needed for a short time. You were meant to be a band-aid, a temporary vice, a handkerchief ..a meaningless yet special secret.
You were meant to stay invisible… far away from my view…but now (YOU) are all I see.
I never really meant for you to stay…But, you have.
You’re stuck in my thoughts. Stuck between the pages of my work. Stuck in my morning, and cemented in my night. Trapped in my sheets and pillowcases. On top of me when I shower..hovering when I apply my lipstick.
You have attached yourself to my temples, lying along my forehead. Twirled around my bang. Curled within my brow. You crowd my space, my thoughts my words, my breath…
You’re here..trapped between my fingers, encased in my fingernails.
You’re right here..smeared on my thighs, shined on my shoulders, on the inside of my elbows. You’re pasted on my wrists…Ruby red on my hip. Your blue on my toe and white at my lips. Cool and moist on my belly, lined at my breast and pierced to my nipple.
You’re here..Right here at my ear lobes. Dangled around my neck. Dripped along my sides..You’re here..Right here..
Nestled between my legs and rested on my back.
You’re here..Right here.. tugging my hair and holding my hand, fastened and lodged deep into my chest
You’re all over me..Coloring me, Marking me, Naming me, and Calling me..